Anthems fOr a 26 yEar Old giRl

我們常常說一首歌很「好聽」，卻很少說這是一首很「美」的歌。
每次聽到這首曲子，我腦子裡唯一浮現的字眼，除了「beautiful」之外沒別的了。

看著電影畫面，聽著曲子靜靜的流過，每一次，它都能輕而易舉奪走我的呼吸。


《Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind 》：Theme

我們老是喊著此生要是能夠看一次Radiohead演唱會，就是當下死去也願意。




然後幾年來我們仍然貪婪地徘徊於英搖與其他種類搖滾甚至是indie pop之間，在一場場LIVE表演之間，一口啤酒一口菸的將音樂帶來的極端愉悅與苦澀一股腦兒的往身體裡頭灌，心想我正在一步步的朝那核心邁進吧，雖然意圖曖昧，目的地又是那麼的渾沌不明。


突然有一天，一個機會、一個暗示、一個善意的鼓勵就這麼來了，我們就像是受到召喚似的，買了機票就這麼去了，下一刻有意識的時候，是「15 Step」的旋律響起，吉他的聲音劃開幾萬人熱烈的呼聲，我們的心跳與周圍數不清的日本人英國人台灣人的嘶吼融為一體。


Thom Yorke這個穿著招牌紅色緊身褲、有著大小眼的超可愛中年男子在遠方的舞台上唱著，像是沉醉地不能自己一般搖晃著他金棕色的腦袋，又像是乩童上身那樣激烈的舞著他細瘦的身體，抑鬱嘶啞又歇斯底里的吟出那些對我們來說標誌意義鮮明的歌曲，然後唱到那首老是讓人淚流不止的「Fake Plastic Trees」時，全場通了電流一樣五音不全的跟著大聲唱和了起來，然後你也就在這麼瞬間的當下崩潰了，好像所有累積的活力、憂鬱跟痛苦都在Thom穿透全場的歌聲中一起得到解放。整整兩個多小時的演唱會，迷濛的光流串四處的舞台設計，因興奮過度而不住顫抖的身體，演唱會散場時你終於忍不住跟上百個人一樣，瑟縮的坐在會場門口，深深吸進一口Caster 3，剛剛完成一件多年來的心願，讓人感到很踏實又很不真實。



回到台灣的隔天立刻得投入堆積成山的工作當中，為了確定兩天前看的演唱會是真實存在過的，你放了RH1995年推出的「The Bends」，那時候的Thom聲音還有那麼點稚嫩無所畏的樣子，你猶豫了一下，換上新買的Arcade Fire，心想平常心情愉悅的時候也不會常常拿RH的專輯出來找自己麻煩吧，其實只要我們的心永遠都是這麼柔軟易碎，輕輕的「if I could be who you wanted」和某個秋天夜晚與上萬個陌生人一起經歷過的感動就會永遠這麼陪伴我們在每個看似平凡卻躁動不安的日子裡。
















滿滿都是人的現場





舞台上方的大螢幕





演唱會當天的舞台，可惜坐太遠拍照很困難





某次LIVE表演時的Thom




朝聖後動物感傷



Radiohead live@ Amsterdam，感受一下Thom演唱時被附身的樣子



「15 Step」瘋狂起乩版



「15 Step」 Radiohead live from the basement版本

不像看電影時的全神貫注，看表演時更像是被狠狠的扔到某種無重力空間那樣，無法思考，卻用全身的細胞在跟這世界抗衡。昨晚BSS的表演，又一次成功的將我丟到這種讓人毫無招架之力的迷濛當中。

BSS的曲風是多變的，也因此不管是陰天到晴天，快樂或憂鬱，總是可以一遍又一遍的重複播放著他們的專輯，然後從中得到慰藉。但是，我從來不知道他們的現場表演竟然會是這麼的活力十足，當初完全只是想感受一下被BSS音樂徹底包圍的感受，沒想到得到的卻是比預期中更多的感動。此次團員雖然只來了六個(而且女團員一個都沒來，唉)，但在人氣主唱(笑)Kevin Drew的帶領下，整場表演仍然是相當完整又豐富，團員間默契十足不說，在帶動現場氣氛上更是好得沒話說，幾個最熱鬧的曲目都被他們生動的表演帶到了極致，也因為這樣，我有一半的時間沉醉在飄浮中，另外一半的時間也都在忙碌的跳上跳下中度過。

二個半小時的超慷慨表演彌補了喇叭出狀況、團員不齊全(齊全?)的其他問題。中途發生的電影般的情節，也讓我在悶了一年之後總算是笑開了，一起同聲尖叫、魯莽的身體碰撞、用力跳得像今天就是世界末日一樣，這些都是在家聽CD都無可取代的經驗。


帶著一晚上的耳鳴，手背上的「The Wall」印章，一封「Lover's Spit」的簡訊，跟跳累了的雙腿，今年夏天也算是有一個很棒的開始。

話說我心愛的電台頭，也就是俗稱的Radiohead大人們這次耍新招，
10月10日起，凡是要聽他們新專輯的人必須到他們官網「自由奉獻」，
30元台幣就可以下載全新專輯「In Rainbows」，
於是我10號當天就興高采烈的上網奉獻了忘記多少英鎊，
然後每天望眼欲穿的等待下載資料寄來，
結果等到今天，老娘我已經在截稿地獄中的23號的現在，
還是音 訊 全 無。

幸虧有身高186的主編大善人安東尼先生的慷慨相助，
我終於聽到了！
(如此說來，Radiohead是救世主，安東尼先生就是傳教士了)

幹！有沒有這麼好聽啊！！

好想去他們演唱會上，一手啤酒一手煙，一邊大吼電台頭我愛你，
然後痛快的昏倒在地。

有空再來寫心得文吧。

我要跟我心愛的電台頭浪跡天涯了，再見煩人的截稿，
再見可憐的鄉民們。

Invincible

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
'Cause there's no one like you in the universe

Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

Do it on your own
It makes no difference to me
What you leave behind
What you choose to be
And whatever they say
Your souls unbreakable

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible


最終，還是Muse拯救了我。

一遍遍反覆播放著椎名林檎的新專輯“平成風俗”，
聽她扯著嗓子竭力嘶吼我不禁感到羨慕，
何時才能夠如此毫無顧忌的發出那一聲漫天蓋地的嘶吼，即使聲嘶力竭也在所不惜。
我開始報名學法文、開戶買基金，
能夠憑自己的力量將金錢時間實力一點一點的投資在自己的身上是一件多麼了不起的事情啊。
但是為何我的步伐緩慢沉重的如此不堪，即使我漸漸開始學會為自己而活。
如果你們自己都不斷向前邁進，為何要對於我的前進感到不諒解與不安？
為什麼要責備我不再純真如昨？
K說她為了接近我的世界，總是定期翻著我們家刊物，
只因為這樣可以讓她感覺更接近我的世界。對我來說這是最大的溫暖與支持，
「妳才是唯一一直都沒有改變的人，妳一直都在做妳自己。」她說。
所以我何其幸運，我只是以原本的樣貌進入一個最適合自己的環境罷了，
如果因此就覺得我改變或是不能接受現在的我，
我只能說你們也太不愛我也太不了解我了。
我終於開始做一些一直以來都想做的事情了喔，
不代表我會因此改變或是遺忘抑或是變得冷淡。這不是很好嗎？
無論是對朋友或愛人，我一直都非常的supportive，
何時你或妳才能真心的替我感到高興並由衷的支持我以及我的改變。
正當我感到生活猙獰不堪時聽著椎名的音樂及歌聲，
立即得到一種活著的暗示與力量，
那其中包含了盡力的燃燒卻又恣意悠遊於其中的灑脫暢快與遊刃有餘。

H的網友見到黃小楨本人時哭了出來，
「妳的『大溪地』拯救了我。」他說。
會提起這件事是因為我覺得這真是個美好的不得了的故事。

然後他媽的我到底發生了什麼事什麼屁都寫不出來。

大溪地
作詞：孫詩雯　作曲：培芷　編曲：金木義則/黃小楨

潮濕的地　雷陣雨　沿著想你的邊緣遊戲
曾經　聽到的　那只是　那只是
劃過的雲　我還可以　閒蕩　焦慮　清醒屋裡沒有你
約好住在漏水的公寓　一起接雨和拖地
等天放晴　到大溪地　或在家裡
你看(著)我睡醒
也許陽光透過玻璃上凝的水滴　好安靜
不需多說一句　潮濕的地　雨不停
靠著我　(還)有沒有你　遠遠的承諾
是真的　是真的　是你所有的表情
我還可以　合上眼　想起　忘記落空沒關係
靠著我　不可能忘記

反覆播放著Death Cab For Cutie的Transatlanticism



悲傷的氛圍瀰漫，竟讓我倒抽一口氣。
靈魂遊走於音樂與電影的語言中，
情緒卻從真實的生活體驗中抽離，
僅僅是想到這一點就讓我悲傷得不能自己。
I need you so much closer.


Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism


the atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how:
the clouds above opened up and let it out.

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
when the water filled every hole.
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
making islands where no island should go.
oh no.

those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before
oh no.

I need you so much closer

I need you so much closer

whatever made me glow
it's gone now
but i pretend i'm having still

you know it's getting very hard
to go on now
but i pretend i want to

you know it wasn't really me
you know i wasn't really there
i would have thought more carefully
i would have turned away

you know it wasn't really me
you know i wouldn't really care
but someone looking just like me
just turned around and you were there

my fingerprints are on the wall
can i go now
cause i've got nothing more to say

except i didn't want to fall
so be still now
as i'm walking slowly away

my fingerprints are all over the world
you see my jacket in the street what if they hear your heart beat
cause you've been seen with another girl
she's in everyone you meet and i can hear your heart beat

,crime, by Stina Nordenstam

當臉旁終於浮現完美的鵝蛋弧線，
抱著金黃耀眼的獵犬想起了原來對大狗狗的嚮往不過是心理的寄託，安全感。
那個美好的午後他不帶情感的話語切斷了某種感情的線，
若無其事是最殘酷的離別，他們說。
新買的小說讀到第47頁，
法國菜食譜的進展則是第2道魚料理香煎鯖魚佐sauce Bahiannaise。
Eric Clapton那首歌每次聽都會感動落淚的3分45秒。
oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight.


Wonderful Tonight
It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her make up
And brushes her long blonde hair
And then she asks me
Do I look alright
And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight

We go to a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
That's walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight

I feel wonderful
Because I see the love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize
How much I love you

It's time to go home now
And I've got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
She helps me to bed
And then I tell her
As I turn out the light
I say my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight

幾年前的冬天開始認識Cat Power。
The Wall的那場表演見識到她歌聲的穿透力，悠遠清透。
一種釋然的寂寥，一陣又一陣對於靈魂的撞擊。
於是接下來好長一段時間總習慣在雨天拿出來播放一遍又一遍。
幾年後的今天遇到她，是另一個時期的結束。
這一次是更深刻的撞擊，18分鐘的歌長，淡淡的編曲，很感人。
作詞Chan Marshall就是她本人，M. Ward也是另一個聽了會腿軟的低調唱作人。
18分鐘的Cat Power好像哪裡改變了，
很溫柔的悲傷。
這麼平淡的歌詞可以感人成這樣我真是服了妳了。

Willie Deadwilder
( Lyrics written by Chan Marshall / Music written by M. Ward )
Bonus track included on Speaking for Trees bonus CD

Willie Deadwilder and Rebecca
They knew that they loved one another
He said fuck this cabby life
She said fuck this old trailer
He said I want you for my wife

Willie Deadwilder and Rebecca
They saw the same things at once
They shared the kind of stuff everybody dreams of
Finding out about, it's all about love

Willie Deadwilder and Rebecca
They got a few more years to go
Gonna have some good old times
No more sad, sad bad times
It's all that they've been waiting for
Someone to knock at that door
I tell you there are some people living alone
There are some people with nowhere to go
There are some people who don't believe in love
But Willie and Rebecca prove 'em all wrong

First time I saw him he smiled at me
And the first time I saw her she was beautiful
Sixty-two plus forty-six equals one hundred and eight
Possible years they'll live long to
That's almost half of the rest of his life
That's over half for her

Willie was shot once in his mind
His cry out saved his life
The second time was through the heart
The doctor pulled the bullet from inside
He had a job to do, he thought
That's his way of life
To take that car and pick her up
To be a man for her
Broken down and cut in two
She had been married for most her life
Now she's finally free for awhile

Long enough to see this man and what he means
When he tells her that God in on his side
No matter what, and will you marry me

Willie Deadwilder and Rebecca
They want to live a life
I wish I had a million dollars
So we could throw it all away
I wish I had a million dollars
So we could light it aflame
I wish I had one million dollars
So we could spend it every day

I'm on the same side as you
I'm just a little bit behind
And please don't bring me down
Please don't let me go
I'm looking for a new kind of thing
A place that makes my heart sing
Another question answered from above

Please don't let it worry you now
Please don't let it worry you now
I've seen inside your heart and soul
It's beautifully jacketed
An open hand and a mind to lend
There's nothing more romantic
Than a distant place behind your smile
Tells my eyes that I am coming home
Please don't bring me down
Please don't let me go

My heart is a worried thing
Memories have planted
Seeds of a field I now want to reap and sow
Maybe when i'm sixty-two, maybe when i'm forty-six
Maybe when i'm thirty maybe the next time I see you
We will have our universe for the first time, again
Rings around our sweet friendship
Will tear up in into a run
Galloping forever more until tomorrow is gone

I deeply say to you now
I deeply say to you now
I deeply say to you now
There's another question answered from above
You're the kind of friend of mine I never had
You're the kind of love I had that I never thought there was
Saint saint saint saint Augustine
Far far far away Georgie Koontz (?)
We gotta stake this thing out
We gotta laugh the whole day through
We gotta live the way that we want to

As long as God is willing, I am too
And as long as you are here, I am too
As long as he and she can forgive and love again and still love us too
You take my heart and you give it to me
You show me love i've never seen
You take my heart and give it to me

When Dylan sang Ramona in the taxi that night
I knew it right away would either be hard or be right
'Cause I'm not Ramona, and you didn't write that song
'Cause you're not Dylan, and I know we really do get along
Get along and get on with what it is you got to do
Go on get along with whome'er you choose
This is your life
But if God is willing, then I'm willing too, oh
I'll be in the front, back and side of you
Just many happily waiting for you
Saint saint saint saint saint Augustine
Far away far way Georgie Koontz (?)
You know what it is
You know what it is you got to do

A young little girl named Jennifer gave me a turquoise ring
A native sentiment of joy love and peace, I thank you for this ring
It's beautiful to me
A lady future journalist gave to me a lucky sweater to wear
Stains she had since eighteen, amazing that she did that
It would have been hard to do for me

A man named John wrote a song for me to sing
Also the most unbelievable flowers I have ever seen
He is a very good man
And he has been an even very good man to me
I hope that one day that song I will sing
Another love named Jennifer gives her care to me
A radiant heart with holy power, she believed in me
And with that gift I cry right now
But a memory of her laughing kills the beast

Another love I still love, a familiar face to me
A standing arch above my heart I've never been to reach
He's laid my head on the bed
And told me Sweet, I'm not crazy like the others say
No he's not crazy like me

This is a four hour song
And it will go on and on
A moment in time traveling on even if it is too long
I don't care
I love to share
I love to sing along
I know you do too
Feel the same way so come along
Sing your song
It's all that you have to do

I'm looking for that kind of mind
I never thought i'd find
I'm looking for that kind of love
I never thought was real
I'm looking for your heart
My dear are you
Looking for me
Please don't bring me down
Please don't let me go

With your love I have foothold
I can carry on
But please don't let me worry you now
Please don't let me worry you now
There's nothign i am saying
That could ever be made wrong
I love you, love you so
I love you so strong
Please remember your heart in me
Please remember it's not anatomically correct
Please know there's no boundary
And if God is willing to protect
Our love, a world of love
I think you'd be willing too

Where are you from
And where are you going to
We have so much to do
Where you are going is
Where you do come from
And where i will be is with you
We have so much to do
We have so much to do
We have so much to do
Hurry, hurry, hurry let's go
Hurray, hurray, things are gonna be okay
Hurry, hurry let's go
All them children are waiting
It's time and they are ready
We got so much to do
And if God is willing
We have got so much
We have got so much

和著這首歌 一起跳舞吧 我一直這麼希望著
兩個大孩子腳步笨拙的 擁抱 搖晃著
你摟著我說「誰說我不痛不癢？」
是你的話還是Elvis的歌聲太溫柔
為了哄我不哭你給我一個吻 結果我呼吸困難鋪吃一聲鼻涕大噴
Take my hand
Take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

頭靠頭 頰並頰這是我們的雙人舞
習慣會沖淡不捨 我一直這麼以為
不過每次都好像少一點點肉那樣
一點點 什麼東西一點點流失了
Take my hand
Take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

重複播放的She Came Home For X’mas，有點憂傷他說。
沒有南瓜馬車紅地毯，那樣的散步讓一些什麼倒流了。
這個紅色的小東西，當初是為何存在？
在這裡若無其事的搜尋著什麼，其實反而有點感傷。
不過那枚小飛俠膠底片終究還是留了下來。
以及那只印著巴黎地鐵圖的杯子。
夢想的開始啊他說。
Antony And The Johnsons唱著：
I tell you I love you
And I always will
And I know that you can't tell me
So I'm left to pick up
The hints, the little symbols of your devotion
It's out of love
I accept and I collect upon my body
The memories of your devotion

溫柔的激昂呵。

"你知道月亮離我們越來越遠的這件事嗎?"
"不知道,我只知道三十歲離我們越來越近了"
"它以每年三厘米的距離離我們越來越遠喔"
"挖那三十歲更恐怖,一晃眼就來了"

Antony and the Johnsons
你唱得我都融化了。


如果哪天
連溝口健二與黑澤明
Antony Hegarty與Indie pop(不會,搖滾不死。我真心這麼期盼著)
茲維克與托瑪斯曼
都無法讓人感動
那麼還是讓月亮遠離地球 世界毀滅吧

在那之前我還是要持續拼命找尋好吃到被鬼抓的餐廳
不喝咖啡會死
窩在床上看小說直到眼睛爛掉
遠死也要跑去天母散步
的死個性

你說你讀完雪國的那一天
我想或許我們之間欠缺的就是這樣的距離

好的時候 你是真的對我非常好
吵的時候 你也真是狠的不得了
愛過的人應該都知道 那是一種什麼味道
能不能愛就好 別吵
你說我太需要浪漫 你很受不了
我說你太拈花惹草 我也快瘋掉
愛過的人應該都知道 (說不出)那是種什麼味道
沒有我的日子 你好不好 我好無聊
星星堆滿天 也不能比月圓
在我心理面 有那麼一點
對愛的固執 和對愛你的堅持
星星堆滿天 我還是最愛月圓
我中你的毒 中你的邪
我無藥可解 我為愛付出一切
我付出一切 我為愛付出一切

第六季的最後Carrie決定跟俄國佬去巴黎住
跟girls宣布的那天Miranda跟她的對話讓我印象好深刻
"I can stay in New York and write the column about my life, or go to Paris and LIVE MY life"
"You mean HIS life?"
這句話總讓我想好久好久..


看到這首歌邱小邱竟然說 F! 這歌詞是妳寫的吧!


天啊真是一首好歌。

that i would be good even if i did nothing
that i would be good even if i got the thumbs down
that i would be good if i got and stayed sick
that i would be good even if i gained ten pounds

that i would be fine even if i went bankrupt
that i would be good if i lost my hair and my youth
that i would be great if i was no longer queen
that i would be grand if i was not all knowing

that i would be loved even when i numb myself
that i would be good even when i'm overwhelmed
that i would be loved even when i was fuming
that i would be good even if i was clingy

that i would be good even if i lost sanity
that i would be good whether with or without you

聽了那麼多次,第一次發現這首歌的unplugged版
好悽涼好寂寞

Everybody needs somebody, now
To love, to live, tonight , oh yeah
開場曲Everybody Needs Somebody
NAOKI的電吉他一刷 全場歡動(喔這不是我哼了一天的歌嗎)
KUMI的歌聲爆發力及肺活量強得讓我驚訝
一向輕鬆愉快的聽著他們的cd這才知道原來他們的現場實力這麼強
我轉頭問胖"她唱歌到底好聽在哪?"
她聳聳肩.
不知道如何形容KUMI的歌聲 低沉高亢溫柔清脆...這種種形容詞對KUMI來說似乎顯得有些多餘
(記者說她是高音雄厚低音清亮)
看著台上白t-shirt牛仔褲節奏輕快彈著吉他的她 看起來像個當年在學校總是在角落不起眼的女孩
此刻唱著擺動著 歌聲卻穿透力十足充滿感染力
感染力 ,對了就是感染力
我們又叫又跳 ,嘶吼, 大聲唱和
想起有一次我反覆的放著LOVE PSYCHEDELICO III
爸爸忍不住問我 他們是美國人還英國人啊?(喔爸人家好歹有唱日文)
人家就是屌
挾著"神祕覆面系搖滾樂團"的封號(是視覺系藝人嗎?!)
不宣傳愛搞神秘照樣張張賣過百萬 照得金唱片賞"年度最佳搖滾專輯"
輕盈流暢充滿60~70年代的英國復古搖滾曲風(喔我能不愛他們嗎)

我以為他們是具包容力的 自然的柔和快樂自在透明的
沒想到他們更帶點強硬 有所訴求 而且非常搖滾!
除了KUMI和NAOKI, 跟著來台的band只能說他們屌!

NAOKI拿著噴漆在大板子上寫著
"NO WAR"及"愛的魔幻 I love Taipai ForeveR "(沒錯,他拼成台百了..)
而且說了這一段(我從其他地方偷來的啦)
「就像100年前般，語言跟文化是無法被任何人掠奪的，文化是可以任大家自由選擇，
我覺得很光榮，可以跟人民能直接選國家元首，自主權很高的這個國家的人民，
共享相同的文化及音樂」
「我覺得在21世紀，日本跟台灣應該是更加相互尊重，相互認同的時代，
我們擁有讓地球更美好的力量，讓我們從信任開始吧」

不知道有多少人像我一樣,單純是因為喜歡他們完全不日本的曲風
(KUMI的英文實在太好也要負責)
不過他們的神秘下原來那麼的真誠熱情
與對社會世界的關心(愛與和平是他們慣有的訴求)
讓我真的很感動

LOVE PSYCHEDELICO
我果然沒白走一趟
我的夏日搖滾序幕果然該由你們掀開阿!
KUMI, 算妳屌!

wish of the darkness
silently falling
wish of the darkness
into the light
the way from the darkness
to neverland

NEVERLAND...

The White Stripes在一旁打趣似的吼著
吉他鼓和豐富的編曲 詼諧熱血
啊我的夏天
我受父親大人之命
穿著超短褲想像自己是美麗的都會女性整理單身公寓那般
光著腳跪在木地板上抹地整理一箱箱這幾年來(說不定更久)的塵封
同學互傳的紙條,聖誕生日卡片,約會對象送的小熊,舊照片,手飾,書,cd...
每次整理舊東西 活脫脫是一場過往人生檢討大會
活了20年(還沒21!誰敢說我21給我試試看!!)
那些堆滿灰塵的,美的醜的,有的沒的過去的箱子,重到我抬都抬不動了
難怪我大部分的時間都選擇遺忘
有些東西還是留在房間的角落的灰塵下的箱子裡好了
不過我還是想感謝
那些藏在箱子裡 過去陪伴我的大家
還有那些過去在箱子裡 現在還在我生活中的你或妳

突然想起,
過去自己曾經認定的那個特別的亮眼的美好的自己
是不是已經不見了?
長得越大,才發現自己原來不如當初想像中那麼特別
原來我再平凡不過了(讓我想起大智若愚這部片來,我們都只是小湖中的大魚?)
平凡和甘於平凡 哪一個比較可悲?或是說,幸福?

缽缽在我腳邊跳來跳去
喔我的小寶貝
不過可惜我養得不是大象是兔子
ㄟ重死我了啦你除了大便也來幫幫忙嘛
你在啃KAYTEE牧草時我可是得擔心歐盟的發展趨勢以及大學的人文教育問題咧

Jack White還在發瘋喔我愛死你了
我允諾給自己的搖滾夏天
now, who's with me?

Moon river wider than a mile I'm crossing you in style
someday oh dream maker you heart breaker wherever you're going
I'm going your way two differs off to see the world there's
Such a lot of world to see we're after the same rainbow's
End waiting round the bend my huckleberry friend moon river and me

誰能像他一樣?
如此的有感染力如此的自然快樂
聽著聽著我轉起圈圈來
搭啦搭啦啦啦
跳著沒有舞步的舞
而這不重要,因為他是Louis Armstrong
如果當初沒被送入少年之家是不是就沒有現在(或許應該說過去..)的他?
音色圓潤自然的小喇叭
低沉愉悅的嗓音
kiss me once, kiss me twice..
喂,你八成沒有煩惱八?
好像全世界的黑暗憂愁都在他的歌聲與chopper中溶化一般
叭逼逼叭叭叭唄
不能沒有搖滾不能沒有indie pop
喔為了你倒是能做些妥協啦
這次我笑了,what a wonderful world
here's to you,
Louis Armstrong

從Yellow到現在又過了幾年?
那兩張一模一樣的Parachutes,有的是我和他與我和他的回憶
有關Coldplay的種種記憶,就好比那張1999的Alanis與2000的陳綺貞
以及後來的Yola tangle,Cat Power,Demien Rice...
一樣的鮮明又模糊強烈的撞擊著我
快樂的鬱悶的,我的16,17,18,19,20
全都在其中了
請不要把他們都帶走了,好嗎?

你說對了,新專輯真好聽
好聽到我又把身體蜷成一團,就像過去的每次那樣
靜靜的。
然後那些有關Coldplay的記憶就這樣一個個浮現
那些蜷坐在黑暗的房間某處,
默默的留著淚的夜晚

So if you ever feel neglected
And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
Hoping everything's not lost
Oh, oh yeah
Sing out, yeah
And everything's not lost

腦中不斷迴響Chris Martin曾經如此唱著,
怎麼說呢?他就是可以如此輕易的撕碎我的心
低吟著輕吼著 訴說一些什麼
然後我的一些心碎,青春的矛盾,模糊的愛戀曖昧
就可以稍稍的減輕些似的
我仍在流淚,
dosn't matter.

然後幾年後的現在他唱著
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

oh dear,
everything's not lost,
i hope.